25

yesterday was my birthday. i turned 25. yup, the big 2-5. how do i feel about that? well, quite mixed, actually. okay i think most adults feel this way about birthdays. i'm quite silly though, as i am sad that my "early-20s" are definitely over. why does this make me sad? i don't know. i guess i just wonder if i made/am making the most of my 'youth'. but there are things that i am longing for - to be done school and to be a nurse, to buy a house, to have babies, preferably in that order -things that are often done in the mid to late 20s, things that come with time. and i want those things so badly, so why shouldn't i want the time to go by? Oh I know, you think i'm silly, as you're probably older than 25 and 25 sounds so young. and it is. and it isn't.

i don't know.

but now i must go and spend my lovely birthday giftcards.